No, it wasn't to gather handbags, though did you see next week's "Hoarders" is on a woman who hoards handbags? How could that be a problem? Seriously. I don't keep handbags though. I use them, then give them away when they bore me.
So I've been asked about my current "ghostly" interest and my obsessions represent each new phase of understanding. This is my life's purpose. I seek to understand all that is out there. Since I was small, I remember being pained by heartless actions that people could do against another. I didn't understand how people could hurt others. Just do right! I used to think. As I've gotten older, I see that most of the time, people don't mean to hurt others. Actions spring from our own deficits and we have to start within.
I want my mission to be loving others, despite having been hurt. I want to feel that pain, and yet, move on from it and be better for the experience. In my battle against multiple sclerosis, I have learned that a. Doctors don't know anything. and b. Rather than admit they know nothing, they will make you feel like a complete idiot. and c. Answers are out there. The mind-body-spirit connection is not a New Age one as we've been led to believe. It started when the Catholic church said that they owned the souls of Christians, so doctors in Roman times could only work on a body when it was alive. When it was dead, it became the church's. If you look in the Old Testament, there is MUCH to be said for taking care of your temple, and also living a good life to keep your body well.
Here's a great site for God's natural healing through herbs and living consciously:
So, do we know everything? Or only what God has allowed us to see? Watching that Tolstoy movie fascinated me. Tolstoy was raised without a mother. He clearly longed for male approval, and I found him weak-minded when it came time to grow up and lead his own family. Sophia could not have been as paranoid and delusional as we've been taught, or she would not have gone to battle legally for her children's inheritance (which she won back.) One has to look at people's motives, which obviously we cannot always see.
Tolstoy did not mean to hurt his family, but his own deficits and longings, blinded him to the fact that he caused a lot of his own grief.
Back to the ghosts. So here's the kind of ignorance that I think hurts Christianity. When we act like we know everything about all. We understand the afterlife, we take the Bible so literally that we deny other people's experiences. I am a true 'feeler', I feel the energy in a room, I can tell when things feel dark and I just sort of have that sixth-sense. That doesn't make me a WITCH, it makes me a discerner. Read the Bible.
When I was young, I saw a ghost at the Winchester Mystery House. It wasn't scary to me, and the ghost was a blueish-white man in overalls leaning against a horse cart with his legs crossed at the ankles. I never thought anything of it until a few weeks' ago, when I remembered seeing it. I never told a soul, and it didn't alter my life's direction in any way. And I've been told that ghosts are only demons sent to confuse us. But I wasn't confused. Recently I went to the website, and saw that others had seen this SAME image in the SAME place -- and my experience was thirty years' ago.
That fascinates me because I don't understand it. And I believe I was put on this earth to understand, to question and seek to do God's will -- and love others as I love myself. And it is simply not loving to tell another their experience didn't happen. What kind of pride is that? Were you there? Did you see the ghost? And why must people attach a motive to it, which I think is plain evil. But it's a lot easier to say, "Oh you're not walking with God because you had this happen to you."
But this is why my favorite Scripture is, "All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the Lord." Proverbs 16:2
I take such solace in that Scripture because it reminds me that sometimes our actions stem from fear. People don't know how to handle something they don't understand, so they simply say it doesn't happen. Or they seek to blame a woman like Sophia Tolstoy for her craziness, when if you ask yourself, what was HER motive? To save her children's future. What was Tolstoy's motive? To leave HIMSELF a legacy. I ask you, if that perspective is correct, and we can't know if it is, but if God's looking at motives, was Tolstoy's actions toward his wife, loving? Did he make her situation better or worse?
But then, even motives stemmed from love can go eerily wrong. And that's what makes us human. Authenticity. Humility.
Expand your world. Don't just stick your fingers in your ears and claim to be more Christian than me. Which incidentally, wouldn't be hard.
How cute are these DeBrand's truffles?